pathetic.

You have no idea how much an apprehension weighs on the sufferer's mind,and how difficult,how almost impossible,it is,for me to force myself to utter a word upon the topic that oppresses me. Everything is uncertain and nothing makes anything more certain. I hate the fact that the one and only certainty in life is death.Though I'm afraid if I can't cope with such intricate and difficult matters,I can't die first. I can't go crazy first. Pray enable me to solve this case successfully,pray enable me to see it a little more clearly and teach me how not to rely on people so much.
I'm literally so pathetic.

"The right thing said at a wrong time and place is a wasted effort and lost opportunity. Everything has its time and place" -@muftimenk