just like that
it all crumbles
i'm not good at describing what i feel
but i really want people to feel what i feel
or at least know,what i feel
so i always end up calling people's names
and being clingy and confused dont know what to say,
i make some stupid reason
like sorry i'm high
no nothing i'm on my period
and they believe me
i understand why they do
therefore,i'll never keep any bad feelings for them.
i'm not good at describing my own feelings. but for feelings which are often left unsaid,there are things that i see,or hear and those certain scents or maybe songs will make me go all sentimental and will definitely,absolutely and unequivocally speak for those unspoken feelings. that's exactly and undoubtedly why i sometimes can just give you a title of a song or write some lyrics and ask you to listen to it because inside of me,there's always this unknown alien feeling or a part of my memory that if someone asks me to describe it by a word or two; impossible. like right now. trust me,there's one thing i really want to write here like right now and tell you. too bad,i can't. i just can't.
took me long enough huh to recover from the pain i suffered because this shit which acted like a babbling bumbling band of bald brainless baboons went all crazy and did the most stupid god knows whether it was a technical error or some stupid real life blokes who perfectly acted like sodden blockheads just wanted to piss me off which was deleted my bloody lovely post that i had done with all my heart and soul including cutting my hands to fill seven pails of my virgin O-type blood (yeah im the universal donor im proud) last year because i did save the draft you assholes. well good news is yes you did piss me off motherfuckers. hah i feel so relieved now that the pain is over. i can finally write peacefully. sorry to keep you waiting well if you do because i dont know if you feel like 'ah when this girl wants to update lagi siaa' ye know. so yeah. well good news is hah i have lots of things to write! maybe after this i wont go emo and retract all my posts that i have published lol. i'll try.
it all crumbles
i'm not good at describing what i feel
but i really want people to feel what i feel
or at least know,what i feel
so i always end up calling people's names
and being clingy and confused dont know what to say,
i make some stupid reason
like sorry i'm high
no nothing i'm on my period
and they believe me
i understand why they do
therefore,i'll never keep any bad feelings for them.
i'm not good at describing my own feelings. but for feelings which are often left unsaid,there are things that i see,or hear and those certain scents or maybe songs will make me go all sentimental and will definitely,absolutely and unequivocally speak for those unspoken feelings. that's exactly and undoubtedly why i sometimes can just give you a title of a song or write some lyrics and ask you to listen to it because inside of me,there's always this unknown alien feeling or a part of my memory that if someone asks me to describe it by a word or two; impossible. like right now. trust me,there's one thing i really want to write here like right now and tell you. too bad,i can't. i just can't.
took me long enough huh to recover from the pain i suffered because this shit which acted like a babbling bumbling band of bald brainless baboons went all crazy and did the most stupid god knows whether it was a technical error or some stupid real life blokes who perfectly acted like sodden blockheads just wanted to piss me off which was deleted my bloody lovely post that i had done with all my heart and soul including cutting my hands to fill seven pails of my virgin O-type blood (yeah im the universal donor im proud) last year because i did save the draft you assholes. well good news is yes you did piss me off motherfuckers. hah i feel so relieved now that the pain is over. i can finally write peacefully. sorry to keep you waiting well if you do because i dont know if you feel like 'ah when this girl wants to update lagi siaa' ye know. so yeah. well good news is hah i have lots of things to write! maybe after this i wont go emo and retract all my posts that i have published lol. i'll try.