fata morgana

i have spent all my life so far as a slave to my lust
lust has the power to hypnotize
thinking about it long enough
and u gradually feel your body falling
to the deepest pit of mountains of lust
but this has been no mirage
so i wake up and look deep into my eyes in the mirror
looking for the faith i've been holding on
my thirst for it is real
i lay both hands on the sink
i sigh deeply
and i ask myself
WHY...?